paying my respects,

sorry double posting. this is for beethoven. he is the man. seriously.

when i played 'those who fight' by nobuo uematsu and conquered [ not perfected ] it, i thought wow i got a difficult song. that was before i heard part three of moonlight sonata. and looked at the 5th symphony.

it moves my 'soul' everytime i hear it.

yay let's learn them (:

snow lotus,

and so i made my first batch of this so-called enzyme drink which is partly alcohol. here is a picture.

                                 

see that big flask with a siever on it? that's the new batch i made. ALL BY MYSELF. *claps* the wine bottles contain the product which is partially enzyme and alcohol and the rest is just the mess i made during the process.

temporarily i am feeling a lil light because i drank a few cups. HAHA. it's like my legal ticket to take alcohol in front of my parents. but look down not on the benefits that this enzyme is supposed to bring.

of course it will be nothing compared to... eg.
                                          

hahaha. i remembered the silly funny incidents that happened prior to this. not many bottles but we were a lil tipsy. hehe i loved that holiday man.

.yllis si evol

it's quite epic how foolish we get when we go through relationships. oh don't you just wish you could just jump into one right now and do all the funniest, live-for-the-moment and stupidest things with someone special [ if you are single ].

i don't. thankfully.

life,

we don't live long enough to see many things through in our lives. scientific experiments, investments, kids so on and so forth. an elf's lifespan should be more than adequate.

i wouldn't mind becoming a vampire(:

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eat my shit

it will past,

ever get the feeling where you suddenly feel so gloomy and despondent and you can't do the things that make you happy.


                                     
this would definitely make me jump. oh yeahh :D

the L word,

                      a pity this kind doesn't exist, or does it?


something one would rather explain in scientific terms and experience in literal terms.

):

i am only left with like 25% of that song before i can fully work on the tempo. sigh.

i think that 40% of the msian drivers shouldn't be given their license. and if at this moment you are thinking along the lines of  ' oh you think you are a helluva great driver' then let me tell you the answer. Yes, indeed, i am. I have definitely made my mistakes [ and still making them occasionally ] but I continuously improve myself (with the help of my dad) but those in the 40%, what is that cina phrase again ah, OH, got medicine also cannot cure.

and every time when i take the ktm train and i see SINGLE women on the 'unisex' part of the train, i feel like telling them 'excuse me, the government built a fucking coach for you ladies and disallow men from entering it; as it is the [again] 'unisex' part of the train is jam-packed like a sardine can and you wanna be so bloody selfish. TO WHAT PURPOSE? it's worst when i see that the ladies coach is partially empty. fucking asinine imbeciles.

oh how i scoff at the idea of msia moving forward ( though deep down know that i do wish for that to happen ) when they can't even get the people to do the simplest of things like making way for the passengers alighting the train. i bet you know what they do, yes that's right, they form a wall of bodies at the exits/entrances making it a tedious affair for those inside to get out. today i saw this mother carrying a baby and holding the hand of another toddler being squashed as she tried to push her way through the throng of, i would say uncaring bastards. it was a pitiful sight indeed.

nevertheless i have faith that the younger growing generation has more insightful and selfless minds to make the world a better place.

one,

maybe things would've been different if I have had a sister..



anyway, i feel that religion is causing more harm than good but it is all due to the weakness of humankind to use it as an excuse behind their asinine acts.


still, life might just have been different in a better a way. hmmn.

more about me,

I take things for granted. I even take people for granted. That explains why many things in life isn't working well for me. That is also why i don't handle relationships well enough; and you know those bff(s) you people have in dozens? I probably can't name you one.

The only time I put a lot of effort into something is when I am deep down motivated to do it. Like eg. playing the piano; one of the things that I actually pour my daily emotions into while doing, therefore pushing me forward to strive for perfection.

hehe now for some less serious stuff,  recently i waxed again. well this time i did it more efficiently, you know EXPERIENCE. hahahaha and when i go out in public i tend to notice a woman's legs more often. hmm and i sometimes see when she doesn't do a good job! HAHAHAHAHAAH i know what you are thinking, JUST WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS GUY! but seriously! they still have hair at the back of of their calves and from experience i know the back part is a lil more difficult to wax. HAHAHAHA. tsktsk these women fail i tell you. PHAIL!

Anyway, at least this time around, I've got my life kinda figured out. Through all the chaos and mess I've successfully set myself upon.

freezing warmth,

 
i could use one every m'nin to drown my senses from the world




imagine the earth as a glass of tequila with ice. of course there's only ONE icey pole in this 'earth' as there is only one end where the ice floats towards, but i am sure you smart people get it.

now global warming is making the ice melt and yeah sure we are worried about the water rising blah blah whatnots. that poses a very scary threat as it will flood those low-lying areas yes.

but i think it's the least of our worries because see, when the ice melts, the whole glass of tequila cools down and if sufficient ice is present, the whole 'earth' will cool down and freeze up; AND this is just ONE of the causes that leads towards global freezing.

another cause would be the green house effect. imagine it as a double-edged sword. yeah sure it reflects heat back onto earth, but it also prevents heat from reaching the earth (from the sun). so which one overwhelms the other?

and another side point, [melting of the] ice that's already floating on water does not increase the water level. it's only the melting of continental ice that can raise the level. however, the melting of all those floating ice will quickly lead to the melting of continental ice too.

no brainer? i don't think so,

so we know that our cells are 'recycled' over a certain  period of time. has it ever occurred to you what happens in your brains?

since nearly every cell in the body is renewed after an interval, how exactly do we maintain the knowledge of our own existence. like were you really there at that period in time? what lets us acquire the ability to comprehend that we were once that person in that point of life (besides them pictures, obviously)

(:

black & white,

        the exquisite sensation of hearing the sounds made by the depressions done on the keys as well as the knowing feeling that guides the very tips of our fingers, absolutely moving.

       especially when you lose yourself in it, metaphorically.

Homesick,

the song you nearly know by heart played with the 'Repeat' button on,
your favorite cup of hot drink on a cold night by your side,
the tranquility in the still of the night,
the light of your old old lamp gently bathing over the mess on your table, casting an almost surreal image of it,
your breathing so slow and calm,
and hundreds of different memories surge into the back of your mind, each one clearer than the one before, more vivid, more colors, more meticulous,
till you shiver and try, albeit futilely, merging reality with your subconsciousness,
with your eyes shut tight, yet, you fail, knowingly,


and you just wished someone was there to hold you; that is when you realize that...

reason #1 humans are different from the rest,

oh yes. we love to talk about other people. we all do that and no no, don't bother thinking like HMM DO I REALLY DO THAT? just let me tell you the truth, yes you do. and the reason behind it? because it makes you feel good about yourself. you criticize others in such a way that it boosts your own ego.

so go ahead, hold your head up high. or maybe even start typing on the keyboard saying what an imbecile this blogger is...