me.

THIS IS GOING TO BE DISCURSIVE.

the last time i checked, i was a happy outgoing person with a lot to look forward to in life. i was an enjoyable company to others, i was funny, i was fun and i did okay in exams and i had great parents although they were a little strict on my social life but i never did blame them for that, there were pros and cons to it of course. moving on, to put it in less than 5 words, my life was good.

then i got this school based thingy and i took it. i embarked on this totally new phase in my life that was awesome, at first. you see, thing about chances is that they don't forgive and they don't forget. they hold grudges so much so that sometimes(with pessimism) you'd think that they are just waiting hauntingly for you to make the first wrong move and then they will feed on that, till it drives you weak and crazy.

so i did make my first wrong move. and let me tell you i didn't even know it. per se, one wrong step led to another and the domino effect brings me here today now. and i am sick of it. sick of everything around me. it's not that things aren't going my way. things are in fact and i'd be happy to admit that. it's just that sometimes you think that it shouldn't be so. why is everyone so pretentious? i am telling you the truth.

now i am not going to be asinine person and say things like i hate hypocrites. let us all use our discerning eye and see for ourselves, who out there doesn't fake it every now and then if not often? i know i do for sure.

food for thought, everything in life is related to the continuity of our species. we might be able to emote as humans but that does not mean that we are any different from animals. our means might be different but our basic wants and desires are similar to the whole animal and human kingdoms' species.